ok so this week has been very emotional for me and confusing well first off me and ron have been done but im still in pain from it and then that thing josh comes over and he knows i dont want him there and he knows i dont like him but hes acting like he wants to be my friend and im like no bitch im not gonna be your friend you screwed me over im done with that asshole. so hes here and stuff and i get a message from someone that josh have something and i was so pissed cuz if he had something and gave it to ron and it came back to me i would be so fucking pissed and violent so. so ya then i went out and got trashed and had fun till i got home then more depression but then i was fine actually ive been fine most of this week the only time im not is when josh is here and thats why i dont want him here. and im glad he wont be back for a bit.i had a bad chat saturday and i dont remember much and the beginning of this week rich came over and me him and ron went out to gbar and we had fun and me and ron got to spend some time out of the house without anyone. ive decided when im upset about ron from now on that im not gonna drink anymore cuz this week it was bad. i did some stupid stuff. robbie me and mattie and justin smoked in this house and i told them not to but no one in this house listens to me so i just said fuck it cuz its not like there going to listen to me and i did it to and i wasnt feeling to good about it the next day i was really worried that i was ganna get kicked out and i dont wanna get kicked out so i decided never doing it again while im here or for a bit after im gone so i can get my life together like getting my GED and going back to school and getting money saved up so i can get my own place and a job so i can get more money but ya so i am gonna be trying a new thing starting soon and i think the rest of the boys will to if they want im gonna start taking out the camcorder and taping me going out to places and having fun outside the house it should be fun and i hope the members will like it. sunday we had a house meeting and me and the rest of the boys are going to volunteer at a place for what happened early this week it should be interesting but no one getting kicked this week. also

ok so this week i have been thru alot of drama and its annoying me i about to go crazy hehe anyways so ya as most of you know ive been having drama with ron and its driving me insane so im soon just ganna stop all things with ron unless the drama stops. i cant take it any more and i want it to stop. i was really hurt that ron lied to me and that hes been playing me but whatever ill get over it. but ya so i went to Z's house and got drunk and talk to him and it helped me a bit with the whole ron thing and i think me and him are just ganna be friends nothing else but i dont want to do this but i think it would be easier for both of us. i was spose to go to the beach with chazzy and chazzy woke up late but its ok im going to the beach with ron and Z on monday. it should be fun and today im going to grushkas and teddys for grushkas birthday and its ganna be weird with josh there so i see lots of drama between the 3 of us but im just ganna try to ignore him and i think ill bee fine. oh and thanx to to some of the members i got an amazing jacket and i got really comfy undies and a GED book to study with, i wanna try and get my GED soon but i just dont have the transportation or money to do it. just so much in my life going on and i dont have time to do it. but i will soon. and also i wanna say to some of the member if you have a problem tell me and we will talk about it together. ok thats all folks!!!

so this week was different and good well i really didnt do anything but chazy and robbie left for arizona and warren left this week and it was funny cuz zac was a day late on the water bill and there was no water for a whole day here so warren went all crazy and it was hilarious then he ad his man left. i also walked around outside with ron and me and him got sunburns but i had fun i waved at so many people and alot waved back which was cool. thomas came over to this week and we hung out with him. also matty was here all week and it was ok but i think hes spending to much time here hes getting gayer everyday lol. and sarah is starting to find out hes bi and i think its funny. me and ron have been having fun here by our selves and i think its ganna be like that for a while cuz robbies always working so untill we find an app me and ron be be home alone alot. but so ya im ganna be trying to get out more i really wanna go to the beach and bring a cam to show everyone but i need to talk to chazzy about it. but so ya thats my week if you guys want me to do anything for the house e-mail me and we'll talk about it b'cuz i suck at cumming up with ideas!!!

so this week was kinda ok and not at the same time good cuz i had fun cuz its was easter and i followed a cute little bunny down a hole and we had a tea party with GIR then i came back and we had some partys here at CBL and i got drunk and made lots and lots of jello shots but only got tipsy. and josh came over and he pissed me off cuz he made ron choose between me and himand he just walked up to me and sayd im ganna try to get ron and he tryed to pull it off as we both should know and that pissed me off so much i wanted to hit josh with a brick. i mean he claims to be my friend but friends dont do that too each other, so im not dealing with josh anymore im over him but i still have to see him. which sucks. but ya so other than that i went to my friends Zs place drank a little and talked and downloadd music. ive been playing brawl and hanging with ron and i like him alot but not sure what we should do cuz we both like each other but we cant be with each other dating wise and i think i will eventually get tired of not being able to date him i will have to talk to someone soon about it but i dont want me or ron to leave CBL but i dont know what to do???