so this week has been really annoying people have been pissing me off alot and ive been trying to get out more by going to the woods or going out with friends. we had a new app this week and he is really cool i like him not that way guys but ya hes a great guy to talk to me and him went to the woods and took video then rich came down and i was doing chat then we drink some and i get done with chat and we get ready to go to the club and i am so trashed that i passed out lol it just all him me at once and i didnt see it coming but ya so i guess that cricket got left there and i woke up wondering what happened last night but ya so the begining of this week zac came here and he gets alittle bit annoying sometime with his cleaning but ya so he came over and i went to the new chinese place and the food was really good. but ya so im guessing youve all been worried about how much ive been drinking and i know i have been getting trashed alot but ive been in a depressed mood lately and it has nothing to do with anything here, well it does have a little to do with the members sometimes but ive been drinking cuz it helps me feel better i mean before i got here i spent the last two years smoking everyday and its hard just to go back to being sober after that long but i am working on it. mattie is the new manager here and i dont know how i feel about that its a little wierd but whatever. hes doing ok kinda but i still miss chazzy and i hope i can see him again. but ya so thats my week and thats all i can talk about so thats all folks!!!!

ok so this week i had a bad week and depressing well first chazzy has left CBL and im very upset about it. im ganna miss chazzy so much and its ganna be weird without chazzy here. i hoping he comes back but i dont think it will happen and im hoping hell still comeover and see us and he calls me. chazzy has done so much for me and i thank him for that. but anyways so ya this week ive been getting out more ive been going out with Z and i had a date with this guy shane who is really nice and might be coming over again and he know justin but ya i went to the beach this week for the first time in forever and it was great cuz i was a little trashed but no cute guys there lol so ya i also have been getting out of the house by walking around the neighborhood trying to work out alittle. so also ive been trying to get my bank account but theres nothing i can do to get it till ZAC gets our IDs made. its retarded that birth certificate or SS cards dont work as forms of IDs at a bank and im also ganna be getting my GED soon i have been talking to my GED person and shes helping me get situated. i know i can pass the test but i still will need to study to remember it all. and guys im sorry that my diarys have been kinda short im just not good at talking about my self or writing so please dont get mad or start bitching that there to short im doing the best i can. and one more thing members need to stop trying to cause a bunch of shit between any of the people here or with other members this is spose to be a fun site but you guys are taking the fun out it. this is a site to SEE our live and its not ganna be real with you guys starting shit, realize that your fucking with our lives and we have feeling to. no matter how much you think we dont, we do! so please stop starting shit if you think its ganna affect us in some way please dont say it its getting really annoying!!!